Spotted Puffer Fish: September 2011

Friday, September 30, 2011

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

oh lucky boy

Even though you were such a little shit, and you tried to attack and bite my kids every time they walked by, and you peed on everything. i will still miss you.

Senior year, I will never forget the day my boyfriend came home from work at Castelwood. He had found a baby kitten in the back of a golf cart. A little lone kitten with an umbilical cord still hanging off.

Brandon made sure mama cat was not coming back for you, checked in hour after hour throughout the work day. Alas, you were still there at the end of 8 hours. all alone. He brought you home. we named you "Lucky"

You were one lucky cat. Even the vet said you might not make it. I brought you to Fenders. I brought you to Las Po. We couldnt leave you for more than a moment. . we bottle fed you every half hour. we wiped your butt with a cotton ball to get you to poo. We stayed up all night long for weeks. Brandon slept with his hand hanging off the side of his bed into a cardboard box ... nestled in his warm, big, hand was the only way you would sleep without crying all night.

My mom said "He is going to be the best dad someday" . she was right.

rest in peace Lucky. You were our first baby together.

am I really that old fashioned!? jeeeezzz

She tried the first one on, & wanted it reallllly bad. um. no. idontthinkso.

Man, when I was her age, I was begging my mom to make me a chicken costume (which she did. and it was awesome.) I would love to find a pic of that! Then I was a mouse, and then I was a peacock. I made that myself with feathers from my peacock. (NO, i did not pull his feathers out, they shed them every year! ) I dont know how to handle this whole girlie girl thing. It kinda freaks me out.

She really loves the "Cheshire cat" one too (doesnt look like a cat to me), so .. thats the one. and its cute.. I guess.

She got upset when I said "but it doesnt even look like a cat!? I can make you a furry cat costume!?? it would be soooo cute! " and she said "fine, why dont you and daddy just pick out my costume for me then!. " =(
I really wanted to make her one =( poooooooo . guess its time to start letting go.
let her be who she wants to be.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

california tiger salamander

Very happy they are taking action around here to save these guys!

There is sooooooo much development going on down Tassajara. its crazy!

Here is a cool article.

Hey country club, can I have my husband back now please??

Video here pics here

Ya, I know this trip was a while ago, but im still relishing the moments of summer....

and I literally just looked at this pics for the first time.

Brandon has been working crazy long days. & I had 6 weddings this month.

Its that time of year where I feel sucked into the rat race. the weddings. the work. the parties. the HW, the emails. soccer. dance. the stuff. I start to question our way of life. I start researching "yerts" and dream of living on the farm. I dream of simpler times. And then I have to remind myself its temporary. This time of year is crazy. Its temporary.

My kids are right here in front of me, yet I miss them every day. Wishing and hoping for more minutes at the end of each night. more connections. more eye contact. Im yearning for some cozy mellow nights at home. family dinners with daddy home. This is the time of year where I start to crack. I start to feel disconnected. the world starts spinning all around me. I can see my kids growing before my very eyes, and I just want to grab onto them, and freeze time.

we need a family vacation & im gonna make it happen.

Juniper had one wish this summer, to go to the beach. I will keep my promise. I will take my kids to the beach. Yes, summer may be over, & its definitely not Costa Rica (we are not going), the weather may not be perfect,it might just be a few days, the school may not be too happy, the little bathroom is still out of order, there are trees & wisdom teeth that need to be removed, but..we have a reliable car, a roof rack, & its off peak pricing! & my family comes before everything and anything. isnt that why we are working so hard for in the first place? for us? I think we deserve a beach/hotel vacay!

san diego... here we come? =)