this week....

B rocked the carpet and tack board! then there were about a million staples we had to pull out. thanks for your help pammy!!!

studio update! last week....

bye bye popcorn ceilings! thank you Baba lorinda!
she wont let me take any pics of her in her work paint clothes! LOL


Hello 3 coats of paint on both ceilings and walls (ya. thats what happens when you use 5 year old paint that got left outside and filled with rainwater). argggg my back hurts.


and i like to spill buckets of paint.

New office/studio space!

You'll see

yesterday

a 14 year old girl stepped in front of the train

on main street, after school.

She is dead.

Last night, Every time I heard the train go by, I couldnt help but cry for her parents.

Im tired today. I hope I sleep better tonight.

roomies

hello there old friend. you are my family. good to have you around. love you.

hello kitties

"ya, Um... what the hell is going on here? " - Bella

Kitten is not so sure...

"I dont give a F*c# either way. Im outta here" - Pickle

stupid silly dreams

i think the gloom is really getting to me. im ready for some sunshine. im yearning. im feining. im dying for some sunshine.
and as soon as the sun comes out.. the work will begin. boooooo.

ive loved just being with the kids, doing stuff without a worry on my mind.
but, whos really that spoiled? Im very well aware that I am lucky enough to have all this time with them.
although, somedays i want to just freak out!!! most days.... are just one beautiful miracle after another in their words, eyes, little hands in mine.

However, int he back on my mind i am contantly thinking ... "am i doing the right thing? am i living the life i want to? the life i want for my kids?" I wish i could be a farmer . live off the land somewhere, live in a huge treehouse in grass valley. grow an orchard somwhere, and Make olive oil. homeschool my kids.

Realistically, I know I would go nuts, and I always tell myself my kids would probably end up doing drugs and having sex by the time they were 12, andn that I would be depriving them of all these experiences. But.. deep down I dont think thats true. deep down I believe I should be somewhere else with my family.

Simpler times. I feel like, with every generation, simpler times are slipping farther and farther away. I just felt really old after i read that last line.

But... really... cant you see it? I can.

yesterday

yesterday my daughter got 118 sight words right out of 120! most of you might not know what this means. but its awesome!
Sight words are mostly words that you should memorize just by looking at (AKA, the english language doesnt make any sense , ie. Should , Because, white, two , etc). so, they time them.. and run through flash cards.. and she got 118!! Im so proud! she rocks!
And, I am so angry at all the budget cuts that continue to happen to california. IT is the worst state for schools! we are so lucky to be in a good district! These people are our future! HELLOOOO!!!!!!!


yesterday consisted of, buying crickets and worms (Im so afraid to add up how much I actually spend at Waldo's), making softball roster, phone calls, lunch with bug, gardening committee, bought first softball helmet, softball practice (woah! these girls dont know how to play), HW. dinner..

And.. a call today from the Nurse. shes got a fever. =( poor baby. She wanted to lay on the couch and watch the olympic figure skating (guess tv is good for somethin!)
After a bit of motrin.. we are back to normal.

PS- THis post took me 3 times, roughly an hour, ( and I type fast!) to actually finish. inbetween
Avery running over and pressing the "A" button for kicks, ('"A" is for Avery. "A" is for Avery"),'Juniper telling me about more baby guppies I have to fish out, (MOMMY!!! no really!!! YOu have to get them out NOW or the flounder will eat them!!!!) , and my dear husband (god bless his heart, he has the best of intentions) untying the dirty apron i'm wearing whilst sitting at the computer trying to get in a little alone time after an awesome homecooked meal. ( seriously people. leave me alone. im just trying to blog here. Its my only hobby. cant you live without me for 5 freaking minutes. its all i ask of you)

omg

we've been up for an hour, and already my children are driving me bonkers. its going to be a long day. i can tell already.

Amanda is having a girl! =)

softball stuff!!

we had our team meeting last night! and today is the first day of practice! She woke up at the butt crack of dawn because she couldnt sleep . too excited about practice!

new ball and glove! (& cleats and bag!) She is sooooooo excited!!

Thank you Auntie Pammy for spoiling my june bug. =) you are amazing.

Just need to keep those eyeballs open.

When it started getting dark, she said.. its ok! Let me find my glow in the dark bat!! haha!!

the sun came out for a bit yesterday.. aaaahhh

random goodness

the ridge

lila bean

arriving at disneyland...

(everything inbetween here)

leaving disneyland...

birfday fun

I threw all the video from the trip together without really editing much.

so.. its really long. but cute. =)

and... here are the photos

growing up.

adjustable loans suck unless you plan to win the lottery.
OH! my husband has high cholesterol and vitamin D deficiency. (wtf?)
I, on the other hand, have nothing wrong with me. (bloodwork perfect). im just tired.