just one day

most days i would die for just five minutes of peace. even when im taking a shower i can hear them banging on the door
"mom, avery has the lotion" or
"mama pee pee peee..MOM!!! PEEE PEEE in tiolet!!!"(funny how the only time he decides to go on his own is when the door is locked).
But today i woke up in an empty house, which has happened once or twice, but on these occasions i was ridiculously hung over from some sort of festivity from the evening prior, hence the reason my children were not home. And, might I add..one of them always ends up coming back overtired and cranky at around 11:00 the next day, ready for lunch and a nap.,,which they fight till the death for.
anyways....today was different. i wasnt hung over. i slept in till 900 (this is really late for me..even before the kids came into play) im a morning person.
so, i got myself all curled up on my couch to read the ever awaited harry potter.(actually..this time, i didnt even know the release date) man...i feel like i have aged 10 years since the last one. i love harry. it takes me into this magical place. im all about that more than ever now. No serious literary crap (i dont mean it like that! im just too retarded anymore to escape into real books) just me and harry and the deathly hallows..aaaaahh!! just to let my mind drift off into this magical place. makes me feel young again...like when i read the very first chapter of book #1.
alas...my brain is shot. i cant just sit and read through a harry potter book in one sitting anymore. I get up..i pace the house,i worry needlessly, i swiffer, i call my kids, i worry some more, i check my email, i empty the dishwater..yadda yadda..
And .. within a couple hours of silence.. i start to miss them. i miss the cute little voices calling my name. i miss the little laughs and all the cute little things. And now im off to a wedding... and i miss them terribly. so much i think im a little depressed.
so much for a well needed day off. man..im nuts! maybe im not done having babies quiet yet. (another dilusional thought that comes to mind when one is faced with too much unexpected and well needed silence)