awwww my girls!

Im going to miss these girls so much! We had our team party the other night, and I was so sad to see them go! They have come so far! and I was so proud of all of them!
It was such a rainy spring, with half our practices and games getting rained out, I feel like it was hardly a season at all.
But.. it was so fun! just too short!

happy

my favorite kind of days.

Racheria Falls

Video I made from our trip

the best

i will forever cherish these moments.

=) the school year is winding down

the kids all sang to me (the cutest song ever) in june's class yesterday and presented flowers. omg.

i almost started crying! it melted the shit out of my heart.

and I cannot believe the year is almost over!

today avery had the anuual Mini Indie at school. WOW! our last mini indie!

I will miss that preschool so much! So many good times and memories ( junes first day of school , avery first day, and more here , here, here , here there!

not so tiny steps

as i sit here and type this, the paper on the desk is scribbled with the pediatricians & hetch hetchy's ranger station phone numbers, in a desparate attempt to leave all possible information with my mother (really, what else is there? the dentist #! I didnt really know what to write), as i embarked on my first journey with no cell phone service for 2 nights and 2 1/2 days into the wilderness with my hubby.

This was a HUGE step for me. Unlike brandon, I had to mentally prepare myself for the journey ahead, knowing there would be fleeting moments of sheer panic, guilt, and horrific mental images that I would have to ignore and move past to avoid a total nervous breakdown in the middle of nowhere. (panic, guilt,& irrational thinking- a few of the many new things that accompanied me into motherhood)

Days prior, I meditated, i rationalized with own mind, I also packed an emergency Klonopin a friend had given me. just in case! haha!

laying in the tent...listening to the rain...

me "how do you do it? not worry?"

B "I just know everything is going to be ok"

me "Ya, everything is going to be ok. you're right"

But, more importantly, I believed it. and I did it! I enjoyed myself. I let go, and..

14 miles later, after a glorious trip, I found myself back where we started, happy, proud,well rested, sore, rejuvinated, stinky, ridiculously out of shape, and ..um... in desperate need of a cold beer & a payphone.. just to hear.. from my mom that everything was indeed ok. =)

(Brandon did obliviously mention that we made ridiculously good time on the way back down the mountain. te he.)

letting go of scrap metal

there are two big chunks of metal parked on the street with for sale .

weve been through a lot together. *sigh

i mean.. i know they are just cars.. but .. I brought my babies home from the hospital, traveled near and far, overheated in desolate lands, 4 wheeled, spun doughnuts in the snow, piled friend upon friend within its back seats, put kayaks and cut down xmas trees and tied down on top, been hit with tractors, trees, car doors, driven to and from san diego, been puked in with morning sickness from me to car sickness with the kids, trasnported goats and tortoises...... aaahhhhhh we've had some adventures together.

98 dodge durango with 150k , blown head gasket (overheats), no air/heat,

hatchback broken & doesnt lock. *new tires (hehe)

91 acura integra, 130 k, no AC, beeps, broken ignition piece thing, moldy, needs new brakes, tires and battery. Driver side door doesnt open from inside. Will run for short periods of time, die, and then restart randomly. MIght het you 5 feet or 5 miles. you never know! Mechanic says not worth it to start trouble shooting.

any takers? make me an offer!

i have music in my life again

i have a CD player in my new car!!!!

its been a long time since ive listened to anything but the radio.

my soul is rejuvinated.

theres a lot of good music on my computer thats been dying to get out..

mostly thanks to adam.

=)

mothers day!

PICS

kids bday

oh ya.. pics from the bday party! here

friends

so chase was over for a playdate, and as he was leaving, we are all walking out.. talking about how chase might switch to go to june's school, and junie says,
"there are mean kids at my school too chase, just like at yours"
He puts his arm around her..looks her in the eyes, and says
"dont worry, we'll take care of that"

church

i am not normally stoked about full catholic mass weddings, for more reasons than one. mostly because they are dark, and limiting when it comes to angles & light, but more so because I couldnt stand sitting through mass as a kid, and still cant sit still for that long. but this church was so pretty! and they let us move around during the ceremony, which is awesome, and usually not permitted in most churches.
Its kinda cool.. running around taking pictures, not having to kneel, stand, sit, kneel, stand, sit. he he. im like looking up at jesus like a little kid , thinking.." what up ! im running a muck during mass! and not reciting the prayers! so ha!" . although, i did , out of guilt (man, they sure do ingrain that in you!) do the little sign of the cross over myself at the end. couldnt help it. if there is a god, im sure they are mad about the mess man has made with all this organized,elitist,racist, homophobic religion, and Im not going to hold that against him/her.
anyways, i was just going to post a pic of this pretty church....

mothers day!

yay!

my babies made some beautiful cards for me.

My mom is the bestest mom in the whole world. I am so lucky. I surprised her with some blue lovebirds this morning. =)

Happy mothers day to all you mama's out there!

We have some wildflowers popping up from the seeds. this one is my favorite. I have no idea what its called! So cool.

Avery says it looks like a Fairy flower that fairies might live in. =)

the bulbs have bloomed and faded away. i miss them so much already!
Going for a hike with mom up to Mount diablo to check out the wildflowers!
had my first wedding of the year yesterday. rocked it.
Have a new car... this is life changing! im so happy! actually, happy doesnt really describe it.
=)

aaah what a lovely day!

the sun is up and out!
a beautiful morning at the sportspark,
peets coffee! dougnuts! friends and family!
juniper was incredible! She was having a blast!
she was an awesome pitcher, got a hit, made some outs!
Its our 6 year anniversary today! wahoo!! a nice dinner date is in order.
Did some laundry, cleaned the critter cages, water changes for the fish.
now the kids are playing in the backyard!
Waiting for hubby to get home from work...
i wish everyday could be this awesome.
these are the moments people.
this is the time of our lives.