crap!

Every Sunday I keep meaning to take the kids to the Buddhist church . and every sunday.. we either forget , have something to do, or just plain dont want to do anything for a change.

OK>>> next Sunday. anyone want to go with me? I hate to say.. it is strange being either the only young person or the only caucasian person all the time.

Ahhhh last day if holiday portraits . So ready to b home on the weekends with my kiddos .
Tonight , parade . Tree lighting . Pj party with friends . Food . Gingerbread house making . So happy .
Just missing one thing.... My best friend. Missing her more and more each day.

turkey day pics

so we had our first big thanksgiving at home. it all started the night before with pumpkin pie crust from scratch. hell ya! as for the dinner part.. brandon and i had no idea what we were doing. I had all intentions of being brave and making my very own thanksgiving turkey. figured its something every woman should know how to do. I didnt even know i needed a "roasting rack" i was like.. what the hell is that? Cannt we jsut put it in this pan!? LOL!
,We literally had to "you tube" everything we made. thank god for the internet.
And when it all came down to it, i broke down, and couldnt even manage to butter it up. in fact, i could barely watch as brandon did it in the sink.
all i could think of was a baby being given a bath. it was like so alive and real to me.
i cant get over it. i loved my turkey as a child, and i guess its too deeply rooted in me.
thank goodness my hubby is a better chef than me !
Giblets!? what the fuck are giblets you ask!? well... you probably know. I didnt. OMG!!!!!!

Lorinda laughed at me on the phone and came to the rescue with roasting rack, thermometer and all that jazz, and my mom made gravy out of the giblets. yuck.

I myself enjoyed the veggie stuffing and garlic mashed potatoes. holla!
here are..
Pictures from the day

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remember spider swinging! ?

dirty thirty

pammy was always the oldest. im next.
Happy birthday pammy! & daniel .hes not thirty yet though. youngin.
this picture cracks me up. haaaa

thinkers

AVERY_
"i want to hold hands when you die"
what do you mean baby mommy isnt going to die for a very long time. you dont need to worry about it"
Ok, but i will love you forever. even when you die. and i want to hold your hand when we die"
me- "honey. i will love you forever too even when im dead, but I will die before you do"
Avery-(starts crying.)
(holy crap! what did i do? such a fine line here)
"you mean mommy and bella wont be alive when im old?"
"you will be grown up baby. you dont have to worry about it. we are going to be alive for a long time"
well i hope that junie can be like mommy when you die because then she can play with me all day.
um break my heart kid.

yesterday juniper says '=
" im going to live with you forever mommy , and I want kids, so you will get to see your grandkids everyday!"
ii like.. what the hell?? kids are so funny!
I said "ok honey! i hope you live with me forever"
(te he.)